Once upon a time, I made a promise to myself that I would never be ‘bored’ again.
Now, I’m sure that everyone is guilty of breaking promises. I’m sure I’ve broken plenty in my day, (‘Dad, I promise if you get me a little poodle puppy I will feed him and water him and be the one to take care of him every day!’ – 6 yr old Ruthie. Didn’t happen). But I don’t think I’ve broken the ‘never bored again’ promise yet.
When I was a kid, I felt ‘bored’ all the time. I made sure not to alert my mom to this, because she’d ask me to clean my room; but internally, any time of monotony I was wishing was spent with friends, becoming a celebrity on Disney channel, or falling in love with the boy of my dreams and going to the ice skating rink with him. Time to myself to relax and refocus? How terrible!
But then college hit.
And school got harder for me.
And the social life got crazy.
And I started working a job.
And then two.
And then three.
And it was at that point I made the promise, ‘I will never feel bored again’. Because any unplanned moment I had to myself was a true miracle.
It’s slightly stupid to make a promise based on feelings. I’d say that to a degree, feelings are impossible to control. But somehow the hectic-ness of previous parts of life still leave me truly enjoying each open moment or afternoon I come across, where I have no specific plans at all. Perhaps I’ll read my Bible and have a mug of peppermint tea. Perhaps I’ll take a walk. Perhaps I’ll play 2048 online. Perhaps take a funny photo and text it to Katelyn. – It’s a blessing.
Today I walked in circles outside and made some pasta out of green lentil noodles. Afternoon well spent.
It’s hard sometimes to balance the busy-ness and the monotony — I feel that perhaps it’s about striving to serve the Lord with your life, knowing that time to recharge and refocus on Him is crucial/attempting to plan accordingly, trusting that He can get you through everything you face, and enjoying the little moments of rest that come throughout the day (e.g. beautiful sunrise over the river on the drive to work, enjoying an afternoon pudding cup). That’s all the wisdom I’ve gained so far on it 🙂
Here’s to enjoying all seasons of life and to putting an end to making promises that aren’t keepable.