I knew what I was doing when I let myself become addicted.
I knew it was a bad idea to accept coffee from others on most days, to make it for my own self on the days it wasn’t offered to me.
I knew my own dislike of being dependent on a substance, a slave to its desires.
I knew I would regret it, but still I drank coffee every day this semester, and am now terribly addicted.
But it has gone too far! I hate that not having coffee inhibits me! What about those days when coffee isn’t available to me? I go and spend excess money on something far from a necessity. When I go home for the weekend where my parents don’t have a coffee maker? I get an awful headache and am not as present and aware in my circumstances. I can’t enjoy people’s company as well.
Nope, this addictions gotta go!
Some say I’m crazy for starting my “caffeine detox” the week before exams. They may be right, but I think it’s time! So wish me luck as I battle through the headaches and the temptations 🙂
Huge respect to all those who have overcome addictions far greater than my little caffeine one. That’s a huge mountain to cross!